Entry 5

My feelings seem so complicated. I don't understand them myself. I might think that it's love, but it might not be. I want to believe in my heart. I love him and that's all it matters. I dream of him day and night. I want to be loved the way I do for him. I want him to know my feelings, but I'm afraid . I don't want to be hurt. Even if it's just in my dreams, I want to continue this love. I might seem like a coward, but wouldn't you want to believe in this happiness? I know that the best way to be happy is to get it over with. I want to confess to him, but I'm really afraid that my little world will shatter and leave me in despair. He might feel the same way, and I really want to find out. Why can't love be any simpler?